I will be real honest with you: I am glad to see the end of 2014. It's actually been a pretty good year personally – there's been lots of fun and challenging work, we finally (after four years of hunting!) bought our first apartment and our little kook of a child is thriving and happy – but I can't shake this awful, dark feeling of dread that has crept in. Mostly because of the state of the world? Feel free to roll your eyes at me. I probably deserve it. And yet I can't quite shake it off. It's been such a bad year for humanity and a lot of the badness is stuff that zips right past my almost nonexistant filter and lodges itself in a spot where it harasses me almost daily. Add that to the whole life-is-fleeting epiphany that happens when you have a kid and you get a sense of how loony I've been feeling. Gah.

Work is doing a pretty good job of distracting me, for which I am grateful, and when things get too bad, I try to focus on beautiful things, like this song that we sang with hundreds of our neighbors on St. Martin's Day at the beginning of November, gathered together on Charlottenburg's palace square with flickering torches lighting our faces in the darkness.

Or the 100-year-old tiles in the kitchen of our new apartment. Aren't they neat? The rest of the kitchen is empty and dingy and we don't have much money left, but I hope we manage to make something nice out of it. As soon as we have keys, I will take lots more pictures and share here. And if any of you are IKEA kitchen experts or have strong opinions about kitchen renovations, feel free to comment away!

Tiles

I filmed a whole bunch of cooking videos for the German recipe website Chefkoch over the past six weeks. The first ones are up today and I find them difficult to watch (sort of how you hate hearing the sound of your voice?) – I look so serious! – but there will be more to come in the next few months in which I loosen up considerably. And Hugo is in them! He totally steals the show, my darling blue-eyed boy. Here's a snapshot of the sweet makeup artist doing her magic the other day. (She used to work for the ex-girlfriend of a famous movie star whose name rhymes with Forge Rooney, eee!)

Makeup

And now, some thoughts on gifts:

Index

Diana Henry's A Change of Appetite was one of my favorite cookbooks of the year. I haven't had a chance to write about it yet, but I keep it by my bedside and leaf through it all the time. It's so handsome visually, but also beautiful in tone and spirit, as all Diana's books are. Plus, most importantly, the recipes are just exactly what I (and I suspect you?) want to cook and eat right now.

Atkinson

I read a lot of good books this year, but Kate Atkinson's excellent Life After Life stood out (so did Ruth Ozeki's A Tale for the Time Being, which stretched my brain indescribably). I'll be giving it to at least three dear women in my life this Christmas. If you haven't yet read it, DO.

Waffleiron

Are you as allergic to appliances as I am? I love the old-fashioned feel of this stovetop Belgian waffle maker.

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Hedwig Bollhagen is a household name here, a Bauhaus-inspired ceramicist who founded her workshop in 1934 and created everyday objects with indelible style, but she's less well-known in the US. From starkly graphic vases to homey blue-and-white tea sets, Bollhagen pieces are endlessly covetable (and relatively affordable).

Elsewhere, Catherine's gift guide is perfection (I want every single thing on it) and Lottie + Doof's is as great as it is every year.

And finally, if any of you are local, the wonderful kitchenware store Kochtail on Invalidenstraße is selling signed copies of my book (both the US and German editions). If you want a personalized copy, stop in the store before Christmas to order it. (Kochtail is owned by my friend Joe, also a former Bostonian-New Yorker, who has excellent taste in kitchenware. If I could, I would do all my Christmas shopping in his shop alone.)

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56 responses to “Thoughts and Gifts and Music, Too.”

  1. salena Avatar
    salena

    Oh, I LOVED Life After Life! I bought it for my grandmother. I read it a while ago but certain scenes still randomly pop into my mind sometimes.

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  2. Ileana Avatar

    I just added that very waffle maker to my wedding registry! It looks excellent. Checking out those books, too, since it’s been a while since I’ve had a good read.
    And oh my gosh… Hugo is so adorable in those videos! You look great, too! 🙂

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  3. Cathryn Avatar
    Cathryn

    I ordered the Diana Henry book for my mom this weekend. I had the impression that it was a great cook book, but now that I know it’s at the top of your list, I feel more affirmed in my gift giving choice. Thank you!

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  4. daniela Avatar
    daniela

    Luisa, I feel the same way about this year. Lots of heartache around the world in so many forms. Thanks for posting this. And congrats on the new apartment, the tiles are gorgeous. Still in West Berlin? (If anyone still talks about it that way…)

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  5. Thekitchwitch Avatar

    I agree; this year has seemed quite bottom-loaded with bad business in the world–if you’re a sensitive person, it can color your vision terribly. This year was hard, but for me, nothing will ever come close to two years ago, when Sandy Hook happened. The brutal and senseless killing of those sweet children is something I couldn’t–and still can’t–recover from. I think sometimes we just have to put one foot in front of another and close our eyes and send a little prayer into the universe for better times to come. Wishing you a bright and successful and loving 2015.

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  6. Gerlinde Avatar

    Luisa, I know how you feel , I’ve been there. Our world is pretty screwed up and you seem to be very sensitive. I also think that the gloomy winters in Germany naturally depress people . Get some sunshine somewhere . What helped me in those situation is going for a walk, taking a yoga class, or doing whatever will lift me up. Thanks for sharing and I hope you will feel better soon.
    We have the same tiles in our farmhouse in my parents home near Göttingen.

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  7. Delyth Ambler Avatar

    I don’t know if all these responses are helping you, but I feel exactly the same about this year and reading that others do too is helping me. There’s a little wishing tree outside a church just up the road from me and I wrote just one word on my wish : tolerance. Let’s hope 2015 will be full of joy.

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  8. Merle Avatar

    I LOVE German you in that video! And Hugo, of course, too.

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  9. Piisa Avatar
    Piisa

    My cousin has an IKEA kitchen at her country place and she loves it.
    I recently moved and left behind a kitchen I designed myself. Sigh. The young couple moving in soon just love that kitchen! Now I’m living with a kitchen someone else designed and, frankly speaking, my eight years older design is much more modern and fresh. Changing the doors, the backsplash and the work surface would make a big difference. Hmm…

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  10. Honeybee Avatar
    Honeybee

    I love the videos!! I understand that you don’t much enjoy watching them but you’re fantastic. I’m looking forward to some more!
    I get that feeling, too. Everything is fine, really, but still… I’m a natural born worrier, I’m afraid, a trait I get from my dad. Being outside helps me, so I try to squeeze in a run here and there or maybe just get off the bus or tram one stop before wherever I’m headed.
    Take care!

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  11. Yvette Avatar

    Thank you for the so necessary consciousness. Wish all the best.

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  12. Pavla Avatar
    Pavla

    Thanks so much for this post! I’m very sensitive as well – so much of the news I hear sits with me, and it’s hard in our world because with technology we see/hear/read about everything that’s going on everywhere. Sometimes I have to take a news break. It helps. As does talking about it, taking long walks outside and yoga.
    Also, I have a 2.5-year-old son, Daniel, and went through the same life-is-fleeting stage after he was born. I felt like I was going to be 92 tomorrow. Thanks for writing about that. It makes me feel like I’m not alone. And you’re not either 🙂

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  13. Victoria Avatar

    I, too, loved Life After Life. I also loved A True Novel – it’s very interesting AND very beautiful. I suggest you check it out. I did not so much like The Paying Guests and am now just in the beginning of How to Be Both, which was published in the U.S. early this week even though it, supposedly, came in a close second in the Booker. I got the e-book version and deliberately started with Eyes. Will let you know what I think of it when I’m done.
    Your tiles are wonderful. And, yes, I, too, feel the same way about the state of the world.
    Too rambling, but I visited a friend in D.C. and now she also makes your mother’s meatballs. Yay!
    Merry and happy. With love xoxo

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  14. Kate R Avatar

    Hi there,
    Completely understand what you mean about this year- filled with good things personally, rife with bad news-news, and kind of undertoned by a perpetual feeling of dread. I am simultaneously very sad that you are experiencing this, and also glad to hear that I’m not alone.
    On a brighter note, the cooking videos are ridiculously fun, so don’t worry about them! I was surprised and gladdened to see that my “unorthodox” method for baking pies is actually not that strange – I wound up making three pie-tin-free apple tart pies for Thanksgiving this year, partially because they’re so easy, and partly because I live in Oxford, and my local Tesco sells many things, but not pie tins. Plus, I think German is definitely the next language on my to-learn list!
    All the best, and here’s to a less scary new year,
    Kate

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  15. Margit Van Schaick Avatar
    Margit Van Schaick

    Luisa, the videos are absolutely adorable. What a charmer Hugo is!

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  16. Cosgrove's Cook Avatar
    Cosgrove’s Cook

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0b4Qf7J2ATw
    Fritz Wunderlich singing Der Mond ist Aufgegangen to his daughter…
    It has consoled me for a lot of things this year

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  17. Jean Avatar
    Jean

    Ahh …. The 100 year old tiles are exquisite =] Such a lovely thing to celebrate; your new home, and the life stories your family will create in it. Congratulations! Looking forward to the videos & the reads. Thanks ever so much. And the troubles in the world … yes, it is hard, and we hold each other up along the way. Love triumphs. Compassion triumphs. Always.
    All the best to you & your dear family.

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  18. Joe Avatar

    We carry that very same waffle maker…but it is sadly not on our online shop yet. 😦
    It will be soon!

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  19. Christie F Avatar

    I love the videos! I was wondering what to make for my family when they come for Christmas (none of them like goose very much, alas) and I think I’ll go for the roast and potatoes. And Hugo is so cute, watching you cook.
    Also? Totally going to buy that waffle iron.

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  20. Debra Avatar

    Congratulations on your new nest! Is it in Charlottenburg?
    Regarding your thoughts on the troubling events of this year: we just returned to New Jersey/New York after two glorious months in Berlin. It’s only been a week, but I can honestly say that our hearts ache and our psyches are troubled. When we were in Berlin, we may have seen a police car ONCE. Here, they are all over, and the more of them there are, the less protected we feel.
    While no place is perfect, Berlin gives me hope for the future.
    I could write a 5-page editorial on how, in my view, the mass transit and dogs of Berlin are completely emblematic of its values as a social democracy. For whatever reason, this time we noticed how most dogs are walked off leash, yet we never saw any of them growl or go after another dog. They were totally chill, and looked as if they shrugged and nodded “hey” when passing each other in the street or park. One day I had to run into Kaiser, and I saw a little Boston terrier sitting calmly (off leash) waiting outside for its owner to return. You would never see that anywhere in the U.S. As for the mass transit, I’m sure there are imperfections, but I can’t say enough positive things about it. To be able to hop on the U2 in Prenzlauer Berg and cut across the city to Charlottenburg in 25 mins is simply awesome. To feel safe taking the U8 to Hermanstraβe and returning at 2:00 am is incredibly cool.
    So yes, the world is a complicated place, but you are fortunate to be living somewhere whose values support your experience of marriage, motherhood, and a flourishing writing career. I wanted to email you and ask if you had time to meet for coffee at Café im Literaturhaus, but your Instagram posts seemed to indicate that you were very busy with filming the cooking shows and preparing your next HB article. Perhaps next time, which will hopefully be in the spring—if I can last that long.
    If ever there was a time when the world needed to listen to Pete Seeger—it is most certainly now.

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  21. Vikki Avatar
    Vikki

    Regarding the state of the world today — yes, very sad. I take comfort in my belief in God and the bible is such a wonderful book to read — there is so much strength there. Sometimes it helps me to help others, even if it is in a small way. Still, I struggle with depression especially in the winter months and have to remember to do the things I know will help — my faith, prayer, reading the bible, helping and loving others, having fun with family and friends, exercise, eating right — I have a list of things to do to….
    I remodeled my kitchen a few years ago — I didn’t replace the cabinets, but took some of the doors to a cabinet maker who cut the center panel out and I replaced with glass. I painted the cabinets and added updated hardware, replaced the backsplash and countertops and bought new appliances, sink, and faucets, etc. Sometimes it helps just to paint, replace lighting, hardware and appliances when you can. I love the blackboard walls that I see in kitchens now — bet Hugo would love that.

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  22. Em Avatar

    Ever since my two children were born, I’ve become a lot more sensitive to the state of the world. Not that I didn’t pay attention before, I did. It just affects me more now. I look at their little faces and just despair at what type of world they will inherit. However, my mother pointed out to me that every generation has their worries (hers was nuclear annihilation), and the world just keeps going. I still haven’t decided if that makes me feel better or not. All that to say I understand how you feel!
    I have had Life After Life on my Kindle for months. I can’t wait to read it!
    Here’s to a peaceful 2015.

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  23. Resi Avatar
    Resi

    Es ist so schön dich mal in “echt” zu erleben. Die Videos sind toll geworden – ich finde du bist wirkst sehr ruhig, aber nicht ernst! Da hätte ich auch gern mit am Tisch gesessen 🙂

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  24. Suzy Avatar

    So much news! Congratulations on your new home. I have the DIana Henry book too and it is wonderful. Love the cooking shows. Looking for the one with Mr. Kochtail now. xx
    Oh and Hugo is, well you know.

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  25. Ambri Avatar
    Ambri

    Luisa, I love that you do not avoid discussing politics on your food blog/Instagram! Thanks for sharing so much of your life with your readers. I, too, hope 2015 is better for humanity.

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  26. Zoomie Avatar

    We just remodeled our ancient kitchen and my best advice is to add a warming drawer to yours. I thought it was an unnecessary luxury but a friend urged me to do it and she was right. I use it every day to warm plates or keep parts of dinner warm while the other parts finish cooking or to pop My Beloved’s plate in if he’s on the phone when dinner is ready. And you can proof bread in it, too, which would be nice for you who bakes a good deal.
    And prepare for months and months of too many choices needing to be made. The good news is that it’s all worth it once it’s finished. I still can’t believe how much pleasure there is in cooking in my wonderful new kitchen.
    http://zoomiestation.blogspot.com/search?q=reveal

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  27. Luisa Avatar

    I want to read it all over again, I loved it so much.

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    You are so welcome! Lucky mom!

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  30. Luisa Avatar

    Yes, still in the west! 🙂

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  31. Luisa Avatar

    Yes, that was an unspeakably awful thing. Humans are so awful, yes? And yet, there is still goodness. I try to keep that in mind, and this great site has helped me with “perspectacles” this year: http://momastery.com/blog/

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  32. Luisa Avatar

    I love the darkness (gemütlich as long as you’re baking cookies and buying presents!) until about January 1 – and then the gloom sets in! 🙂

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  33. Luisa Avatar

    They ARE helping. The comments here always do. I am so grateful.

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  34. Luisa Avatar

    Isn’t it nuts? It’s like you’re suddenly transformed into a bird and can see all of life as if it were a speck on the earth while you fly above. Very disconcerting.

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  35. Luisa Avatar

    Thank you, thank you for the book tips! And hooray for meatballs and their journey around the world. Thinking of you xo

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  36. Luisa Avatar

    It is so good to know that others feel the same way, such comfort. Thank you for your kind words about the videos!

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    Oh, lovely. Thank you for that!

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    It’s going to be our house-warming present to ourselves! 🙂

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  41. Luisa Avatar

    Sadly, it’s not! We’re moving to Wilmersdorf. I’m gutted to leave our neighborhood, but the one we’re moving to is nice, too…and five minutes from my mother’s house (weird? good? both?).
    I agree that Berlin is a wonderful place to be. I worry about the safety bubble being punctured one day -I think 9/11 definitely traumatized me for life – but on the whole it’s a good, good place to live, flourish and raise a child.
    The past several weeks were indeed nuts, but I’d love to meet you next time you’re in town. Send me a line!

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  42. Luisa Avatar

    I hope you love it. And yes to your mom’s reminder about nuclear annihilation – did you see this in the NYT today?
    Take this, too, for what it’s worth:
    News is bad as bad news sells.
    There’s a lot of it about
    From ISIS slaughter to seas that swell.
    But don’t forget how far we are
    From Verdun and Hiroshima.
    http://www.nytimes.com/2014/12/09/opinion/roger-cohen-annus-mirabilis-2014.html?_r=0
    That put a rueful smile on my face.

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  43. Luisa Avatar

    Vielen Dank!!

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  44. Luisa Avatar

    Yes, it’s been a crazy year! The one with Joe is not up yet – as soon as it is, I will let you know! 🙂 xx

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  45. Luisa Avatar

    Thank you for being kind and lovely readers!

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  46. Luisa Avatar

    Ooh, what a nice idea! Thank you.

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  47. Jemima Avatar
    Jemima

    You are a natural in the videos and Hugo is such a lovely little boy. Looking forward to more.

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  48. Katrin Avatar

    Personally this year has been a good one, but I definitely agree about the sad state of the world. But hooray re the new apartment! Congratulations. Ikea kitchens are great actually!

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  49. orcagna Avatar
    orcagna

    Being late like the proverbial “aal Fastnacht” – yes, I do have strong feelings about kitchen renovations, mostly because all kind of kitchen “studios” give me the creeps. When we bought our place just a couple of years ago, it came with an ancient IKEA kitchen. The quality was poor, the coloring of some pieces awful, and trying to get replacement doors didn’t work. Finally our very capable carpenters took over, and guess what – it was about the same price as non-matching stuff from IKEA. Need to add that the place was built nearly exactly 100 years ago, so IKEA measurements didn’t fit all the corners in the first place. Lesson learned: Find some carpenters that someone you trust recommends, tell them what you want and compare the offers. I’d guess that you don’t want your new place to look like a furniture store in any event…
    And I did get completely lost in “Life After Life” when I was in Umbria in September. I particularly loved the ending, and all the layers it implied. And the doll that went down the roof, the people that had to fall down the stairs… A whole world of (and in) a book.
    BTW, I bought a Philips Light Therapy lamp early this year and use it in our bathroom for getting ready every morning and getting a stronger dose of brightness than usual. It’s better than just yearning for Italian skies…

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